
Teya: "LOOK MOMMY! I'M SO PRETTY! I WEAR MAKE-UP!"
I look at Teya, her tummy, her legs, her feet, the counter, the floor and most obviously her face are covered in my eye shadow (which as you can guess is long gone by now). I look at the time: "tick tock tick tock, playgroup starts in 20 minutes!" Yikes! it takes 20 minutes just to bundle up my kids and load them into the car up here in frozen Minnesota, guess we'll be late but we might still make it.
I tried wiping her face with a wipe, no good. I tried makeup remover and it was coming off but then Teya got her hands in the water and started sloshing it all over. Now brown water was spilling over the counter onto her feet. This isn't working I think, guess it's bath time again. She walks over to the tub leaving brown footprints. Guess I'll have to clean my bathroom again. The Hamster wheel keeps spinning. run run run, clean clean clean, bathe bathe bathe, feed feed feed, then start all over again! AHHHHH!
Finally the bath is done and it's back to the battle of getting her dressed. "This too tight! These pants are hurting me! I don't want this shirt! WAAAAAA!!!!" At last she's dressed. I look at the time, "tick tock tick tock, playgroup is officially over, but there might be a few moms still hanging out."
I turn to Teya, "Okay, I'm just going to change Brinley's diaper and then we're going bye bye"
Teya: "I don't want to go bye bye, I just want to stay in Minnesota!"
Me: "We are in Minnesota, we're going to the community center, don't you want to go to the community center?"
Teya: "Yeah! The community center! Let's go Mom!"
Me: "Okay just a minute, I gotta change Brinley"
I go to pick up Brinley and of course, her diaper is leaking wonderful yellow nastiness all over her outfit. How hard can it be to feed and dress two kids and get them out of the house!? The Supernanny could do this in 20 minutes! Why is it taking me 2 hours!!! Brinley is going to need a bath too. Hop back on the hamster wheel. Run run run!
Finally we're all ready, playgroup is long over, but for the sake of my own sanity I want to leave the house.
Me:"Okay Teya, are you ready to go?"
Teya: "I'm hungry mom."
Of course you're hungry. Of course we're not going to leave the house. Who was I kidding anyway? I feed the girls. Looks like Brinley will need another bath. My To-do list is sitting on the table laughing at me. Haven't crossed off one thing yet. Should've written down, "dress kids, feed kids, bathe kids" a couple of times. Then my list would be looking pretty good.

At last the kids are fed, bathed, dressed and down for a nap. Only problem is, Brinley doesn't want to nap. I try unsuccessfully for an hour to get her down. Finally I give up and decide that nap time will not be the sanctuary I was hoping for. Teya wakes up throwing a disoriented fit. The bags under my eyes are getting heavier. As Teya screams in the background I call Taber and leave a voicemail.
"Hey babe, it's me. (Teya screaming in the background) I was thinking maybe we could switch jobs for awhile. (More screaming) I know I don't have an MBA or anything, but I'm sure General Mills could use me somewhere. (Teya's screaming escalates) I could be a secretary (more screaming) or an aide for someone (Screaming becomes hysterical) I'll even be a janitor just please! Think about it, you'd be a great stay at home Dad! I think we're on to something here! okay, gotta go, bye!"
Teya is still screaming but now I'm laughing. Confused by my laughter she stops screaming.
"Are you hungry?" I ask her.
"Yes" she whimpers back
Content, I jump back on my wheel and keep running. This is my life, those darling little girls that require so much feeding, cleaning and caring for are mine, and I wouldn't give that up for anything.
Today my friend shared some motivational advice that fit perfectly with my experience. She said that her husband told her a story of two kayakers who went 8 miles against the wind, beating their opponenents with one simple strategy: "Keep paddling". No blasting ahead and dead stops. She said, "I've told the story like 8 times in the last 24 hours, and I can't stop thinking about it... doing laundry that will be a mess again in two days (keep paddling), working on my business (keep paddling), trying to talk my daughter through the abyss of her emotional, tortured, soul-felt tantrum (keep paddling)... consistent effort to get to the end. I like it."
I also read a talk today by Elder Lawrence E. Crobridge of the Seventy. He said,
"Life is hard, but life is simple. Get on the path and never, ever give up. You never give up. You just keep on going. You don't quit, and you will make it."
Today we got out of the house, both kids are napping at the same time, my laundry is whirling away in the washer and I'm blogging in a semi-clean, quiet house. Life is hard but life is simple. Just keep paddling and you will make it!